Sunday, March 17, 2013

Helplessness?

Just when you are "enjoying" the calmness, the other shoe drops and the chaos begins again.

You immediately cringe when the telephone rings . . .
but you know you have to answer it, so you do.

You are silent as you listen to the voice on the other
end of the telephone.

There is a feeling of helplessness . . .
knowing you can not fix it, you cannot make it all better.

There is a feeling of dread . . .
what is going to happen this time?

How are you going to make it through?

As you head out the door you take a deep breath . . .
you get into the car and pause with your head down.

Dear God, Please help me through.
I have no idea how to help them understand.
Please intervene.

The drive is quiet but your mind is racing . . .
they were always the ones that took care of you . . .
time and years have changed it all . . .
now, roles have reversed.
Age and disease have changed them . . .
and now we must adapt.

Time . . .
it goes so slowly some days for them . . .
other days they are completely lost within it.

This is our new normal . . .
loving and caring for them as they slip farther away.
Trying not to focus on the negative . . .
trying to remember it isn't drama, but a disease . . .
a horrible disease that is taking them away.

How do we accept it?
How do we cope?
Only through Prayer, the Love of Others
and God's Grace.





1 comment:

ML said...

Julie, your family is in my prayers. I know the stress and pain that you are going through. God is always with you and He will help you and Randy through this.

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